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well i haven’t been on in a long time, not because i didn’t want to be but because of my life right now. there are so many things i have been wanting to say that have been locked inside my head until now. Robert was the only guy i truly love and still do love, people say love is such a strong word but in my case love doesn’t describe how i feel about him. He was my other half the missing piece to my fucked up puzzle. the one thing that makes me upset the most is the simple fact that i don’t know what happened to us. one day hes my one and only, the next hes just the one that broke my heart. i don’t understand how you just stop talking to a girl after being with her for so long. every night i find myself crying and holding on to his shirt for dear life. it hurts so bad to know that hes gone out of my life. slowly but surely i will get over him. another thing that has me going crazy in my life is the fact that i have a shitload of people living with me. lets see here i have mom,dad,sister,aunt uncle their two kids,my mom brother and four dogs in one house.its crazy i hate it here, sometimes im scared to come home only because i don’t like being yelled at for something that doesn’t even evolve me. its a sad day when you have to hide you meds, car keys, and wallet under your bed. with all this said in June im moving yep that’s right folks im moving, to LAS VEGAS! i have so many feelings about this. i have lived here in clarksville since i was born, all my friends and family are here also, i would have to start all over again and make new friends. then again im excited its a new scene to see and its a new lifestyle then what im used too. I’m going to miss my best friends Jessica robich and ashlynn arrowood, i know that when i come back ashlynn will be here. jess on the other hand wont shes moving to GA, im happy for her because she gets to start her life new with beau, but shes the one that has been there for me through everything. its going to be a hard long road till i get my life back on track but know just know that im trying it may be a little while till I’m myself again but soon enough it will happen.
